The sun is shining brightly and the glittering layer of fresh, white snow dazzles my eyes. Yet, only a moment later it seems like someone has switched off the light. Everything looks grey, and the air is full of snowflakes whirled about by wind.
I think spring days are like a person’s mood, with joy and longing present at almost the same time.
I got a baby sister forty years ago. I hardly remember anything about her birth, but I remember that only a week previously we had moved to our brand-new home, which was just across the road from our old home. Some boys from the Opisto came to help with a tractor. We moved from the Opisto building into our new house.
I also remember from that time my disappointment of having to celebrate my fifth birthday in our old home at the Opisto, while my cousin, who lived practically next-door to us, celebrated her birthday in their new home.
Maybe, for a five-year-old, her birthday was more significant than the birth of a baby sister. But now that my younger sister turned 40, I fully appreciate how important she is for me!
I was not able to attend my sister’s birthday party, but she sent me pictures. I was really glad for her happiness, but still felt a little sad for not having been able to be present myself.
I remained to wonder if it would right for me to share my longing with the happy ones who enjoyed each other’s company. Would it lessen their happiness if I told them? Or should I just go and hide somewhere and cry about my lonesomeness?
I ended up telling them something about my feelings. I did not mean to detract from their joy but only wanted to let them know that I was lonesome for their company and friendship. That I am grateful for my siblings and their spouses and appreciate the bond that we have despite the long distances that separate us.
I also remained to ponder whether I can choose my way of viewing things: should I feel that I am missing something or rather remember all the good things that I have. It is possible that someone may long for precisely the things that I have been given.
Several years ago, a friend of mine said that to my sister, pointing out that I have many things that some others would be happy to have in their lives.
At that time, too, my other siblings and their friends were spending time together, while I was far away all by myself.
Or I was not all by myself, but maybe still lonesome. That was around the time when I was still finding my own niche in a new environment and a new community up here in the north.
The words of that friend and neighbor were wise – as were many of his other comments, too!
My mother-in-law, for whom I am the best daughter-in-law (her only son’s wife), asked a couple of weeks ago if I have ever regretted moving here. She went on to say that I would not have to answer if I did not want. I think I answered honestly, ”I have not regretted it!”
Things have not always been easy, but I have not regretted moving up here. I take it as God’s guidance. After all, my life here has been the fulfillment of at least one or even more dreams.
Here I have my home and the people I love. I like living here. I have even learnt to enjoy solitude. And I know that one should be happy with the things one has been given.
One should work and even suffer hardships to attain one’s dreams.
My husband and children surely also remember different feelings and comments from me, words spoken at moments of frustration and fatigue. But they know me well enough to take these comments as transient outbursts of gloominess.
Human mind, at least my mind, really is like a spring day. There is storm and sunshine that alternate, often without a warning.
We need to have a lot of patience, understanding, flexibility, love and forgiveness. I am happy we have had enough of them as a family.
Text: Salla Pätsi
Translation: Sirkka-Liisa Leinonen
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Opistovuosi-koulutuksen valtakunnallisten opetussuunnitelman perusteiden mukaan oppivelvollisille tarkoitetun kansanopistokoulutuksen tavoitteena on edistää opiskelijan omaehtoista oppimista, auttaa häntä löytämään oma opiskelutyylinsä ja antaa valmiudet opintojen jatkamiseen perusopetuksen jälkeisessä koulutuksessa.
Mihin syntien anteeksiantamus perustuu Raamatun mukaan? Kirjoittaja käy läpi Uuden testamentin anteeksiantamusta käsittelevät kohdat, joiden kautta avautuu monipuolinen ja selkeä kuva aiheesta.