When I visited the Paris Disneyland in 1998, I went on a roller coaster ride that passed at high speed through a dark building with planets all around.
For the past few weeks my life has been a bit like that ride. Our family’s daily life is like a roller coaster car speeding through society’s state of emergency.
I have spent most of my time at home, feeling that we live in two different realities. When things have been good, we have been up high, enjoying the sunshine and steadily making headway. Children have managed their school work, teachers have had time to listen to my concerns, and I have been able to complete my own study assignments.
At other times were have been traveling through a tunnel. I have felt hopeless in the battle against mounting chaos, and it has been impossible to concentrate on school work or studies. We have been weary and downright exhausted.
At times the little brother has felt frustrated without any friends to play with, and he has disturbed the bigger children who have been trying to work on their video lessons. The roller coaster car has banged loudly against the walls.
Despite the intense and variable feelings, things have been quite good in our home car. The services and other programs broadcast at Easter time were like an oasis in the desert. The children listened with great concentration to the stories read by Tapio Holma. Hearing on the radio the familiar voice that they remembered from CD recordings helped them calm down.
The emergency state is the same for everybody, but each person lives through it in their own way and in their own reality. The roller coaster rides of life are complex. Other cars occasionally come so close to ours that we can hear worried comments: ”Increase your awareness and share your knowledge!” “Help others by joining groups on Facebook!” ”We don’t have enough customers in our shop!” ”I have this health problem. Do I dare to go shopping?”
The demands we hear from the other cars oppress us. Isn’t it not enough for me to hold fast to the sides of my own car? The worries of others weigh on my heart, yet there is nothing I can do about the loss of customers or other people’s health problems. It is sad to hear that some children may not have hot meals or support for their school work in their home cars. Social workers and child welfare are needed to help.
I try to focus on the small causes of joy and the lovely things that keep us afloat in daily life. Children have been a real joy to each other. As a mother, I have greatly enjoyed watching their wonderful games. I even enjoy medical appointments. It was fun to accompany our oldest child, who moved away from home last fall, to an appointment at a university hospital. Since the appointment did not cause any worries, we thoroughly enjoyed the trip to and from the hospital. It was lovely to be able to discuss things at leisure for the first time since we last had a moment together long ago.
The coming of the spring and the increasing sunshine are comforting. I make myself a cup of coffee and sit down for a moment. I am listening to broadcast services, and that makes me feel safe: ”We are protected by eternal God and carried on His strong arms.” When we cannot rely on our own strength, the only thing we have left is trust in God and faith.
Text: Suvi Myllymäki
Translation: Sirkka-Liisa Leinonen
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